i want to grow old with you

Writers and journalists, well some, are often portrayed in movies as career-orientated, 24/7 on call, thus loveless. I fear though, that this portrait is becoming truer. I know three lady journalists and one male writer who still remain single (either by choice, fate, or Mr. and Ms. Right hasn't come yet) even at ‘mature’ age.

I do not want to end up like them.

I love my career, but I am also in love with the thought of finding love, but—

The problem is, I am (temporarily) dodging this so-called ‘happiest and greatest emotion on earth,’ because I want to focus on my job first. I fear though that by the time I feel I am ready to commit to landi moments, the boylets are nowhere to be found.

from Aspieweb.net

Sure, there are men in the office who want to get to know me but I do not want to landi back—not yet.

Today, I met a 70-year old woman journalist who, by choice, stayed single. She seemed happy and healthy although she was carrying a walking aide (baston) with her. However, I am guessing that deep down, at the back of her mind, at most mundane moments, she feels lonely, incomplete, unhappy. I believe we ought to find our better half, someone we will grow old with.

I do not want to end up like her.

My office mate who got married at an early age (25, if my memory serves me right) encourages me to date as many men as I can handle. At the age of 21, I should be thinking of marriage, he said. I laughed.

from google photos

I do not want to remain single, of course. I want to get married before I reached 30. 

Our department is planning to come up with an additional page for the Lifestyle section. The coming love month inspired our editors to publish a special Valentine issue; I was tasked to do a ‘boyfriend-girlfriend wish list.’ In addition to that, I am currently assigned to our “Better Half” issue. Every Sunday, we publish love stories of married couples. Their love and life anecdotes inspire me, leave me in awe, and make me believe that someday, l-o-v-e (this four-letter word that makes the world go round), will also come my way.

I do not want to remain single by the time I have wrinkles.  

Ah, the thoughts that February 14 makes!