would-be

Day after day passed, I am still sitting in front of my portal, waiting, waiting, waiting in vain

Waiting in vain for my would-be lover to make a call right now, right now, right now

Right now, I am exhausting my efforts and energy for the wrong reasons

Wrong reasons—life has never really been fair

I may sound rancid, melodramatic, acrid... but I –

No, I would not dare say my gibber,

I might regret it later

Hope.